My best man doesn’t even know he was supposed to clear his schedule. My family never knew to book their flights. The wedding planner never got the call and Ryan never agreed to sing those songs one last time. I will be leaving town a week later, but it’s not where I should be. She will never call me son and he will never get a chance to show his face. Your dress was never sold and your ring hadn’t seen the light of day, we threw it all away, we threw it all away.
A bright dream is now a dark nightmare. Demons haunt this body, I’m not me. So close, we got so close. I am alone and it’s the hardest thing to show, everything is a show. I could win awards with my acting skills, but you never notice when I sneak out the back door to overdose on pills. No one sees the darkness and no one cares enough to help. I’ve been sleeping days away and thinking through the nights. We did it all wrong, so wrong.
Maybe this addiction will kill me or this cough will do me in, or maybe if I’m lucky it’ll happen before I know it. 15 days away and I just want to go away, how Romeo and Juliette we could be, will you go to Heaven with me?
If the Good Lord gets me through the next 15 days then I’ll know there’s a bigger plan for my life. I’m in trouble, so much trouble. Everyone is watching me and heard my confession. But no one was ever really listening.
When you think with your chest, there’s not a thing that you don’t see.