mike | ziemer

Between 2004 and 2006 I had the closest, most awesome, group of friends in the world. My best girl friends came over to my apartment every day, I lived with my best friend, and we couldn’t get our other best friends to leave. We did everything together. It was seriously the best time of my life.

In 2007 and 2008 I had a girlfriend that I lived with and saw my friends less and less. I still had a close group of friends that was always around but it definitely wasn’t the same.

In 2009 my world came crashing down when that girl left me and all of my friends were there for me. It wasn’t necessarily the same friends I had in 2004-2006, but it definitely started to feel like that again. I was piecing my life back together. I had friends around me 24/7 and life was great, the only thing missing for me was a girlfriend.

In 2010, I got a girlfriend. We hit it off so well that within a few days, without even realizing it, we were already living together. The harder that relationship got, the further I drifted from my friends and eventually, when things got really bad, I felt completely alone.

We broke up in 2011 and I started, once again, trying to piece my life together. It has taken a lot more this time to win some of my friends back. I’ve also shut myself off a lot from developing close relationships.

At this time, I would say I have a very solid group of dudes that I work with and hangout with that has been consistent. Some of them have been in my life as long as 10 years and some as recently as a few months. However, I’m still finding it hard to find those good and reliable and consistent girl best friends in my life. I’m also finding it hard to let any female in general truly get close to me.

There is no point to this except to type it out and get it off my mind so I can sleep.

Thanks for reading.

Feel free to leave me feedback in my ask, I would really appreciate it. I am going crazy.

I need new people in my life.