It’s a strange thing knowing that I love you and that I always will. It’s a strange thing when I catch myself missing you. It’s a strange thing both picturing life with you back in it and life with never seeing you again. It all does strange things to me when I think about it.
The best thing to tell myself is that I wouldn’t be where I am now if I never learned to look forward 90% of the time and only look back when it’s completely necessary.
I guess I’m learning and growing and finally being happy and confident and strong on my own for really, the first time ever. I guess I’m finally growing up, and that’s a strange thing too.
The girls I’ve loved and lost are never coming back.
The friends I’ve made and lost are never coming back.
The chances I never took are long gone.
The words I never said will never be said.
The letters I wrote but never sent will remain unsent.
The hands I used to hold are holding on to someone new.
The one I so badly want can’t be forced to want me back.
Through all of this, I’m still alive, I still have reasons to smile, and I still have myself. Nothing is impossible to get through. This isn’t where I expected life to take me, but it’s the only life I have and I’ll make the most of it.
If you live your life letting your unsuccessful / failed relationships dictate your future, you will never be happy. Free yourself from the things that hold you back and be strong even on your weakest days. No one should have the power to control your thoughts and actions except YOU.